Csy-Lux

Good morning, friends ❤️ I am sitting here on this really early Tuesday morning drinking maybe one of the best coffees that I have made in my life. It feels like the right amount of hot, the perfect amount of sweet and just the right amount of strongness to make me feel alive at this hour. Everyone in the house is still asleep, and the morning chaos has yet to start. No one is rushing to work yet. No little feet are heard at this time. No television or music is on, and no neighborhood dogs are barking at this moment. The whole world just feels still, and it brings a sense of calmness that I needed this week. I hope your weekend was nothing short of amazing, and your week has been off to a great start.

The last 3 weeks have been very busy for me. It was one of our most favorite times of the summer- Fair time. You know that I absolutely LOVE our fair. There is something so special about our hometown fair to me. My husband and I have been going every year since before we had kids, so going always brings back really special memories. That is like 18 years of going to this fair together! Nothing compares to the smell of fair food in the air (funnel cakes, corn dogs, churros,) the perfect summer weather we are blessed with and all the different fair events that bring the people together! We had a BIG family day on the first day of the fair. Going with 3 kids in 3 different age groups is not for the weak but we ventured out on the fair’s busiest night anyways LOL. We invited my sister-in-law to join us, as well as my sister, my little brother, and our little nephew. After waiting in long lines, lots of walking around crowds, a lot of sweating, we managed to get some very much needed relaxing break while the kids grabbed a snack. There was a moment though, where I looked at my husband as I carried our toddler through the fair completely out of breath and whispered, “Never on the first day again” but that feeling was soon replaced with such a bittersweet feeling and my heart melted with love and sadness at the same time. Like how are my babies each their own little different person? How are they growing up so fast. Just watching them laughing, making jokes and hugging each other was enough to make my heart grow 5 times and make me want to bottle up all those memories forever.

It was so nice that my little brother went because he was able to join my oldest daughter on some bigger kid’s rides. This was our first time letting them be on their own at the fair within reasonable distance only because of the mom anxiety inside of me. My husband also split up and took our middle child to the rides she wanted to go while the rest of us attempted to do the smaller ones with little Damian. He wasn’t a fan of the rides at all, so we ended up walking around most of the time and observing and grabbing snacks. We went back a few days later for a country concert but this time it was just Damian and I which was so nice because I also love spending time alone with husband. I am not going to lie, it is a little harder to do dates having 3 kids now compared to when we only had 1 or 2, so any time we get away we make the most out of it. We enjoyed an amazing Luke Bryan concert. This is the second time that we have seen him, and he always puts on the best shows! He is one of the best performers in my opinion. We ended the night the best way possible, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. A good Ol IN N Out meal on the way home- Double Double, animal style fried and a nice cold coke.  Just my husband and I like back in the day ( Heart). 

Can you believe we went back out to the fair two more times?! Once back again for a Mexican concert with Damian and my mom, sister and in laws and the last time for Rodeo with little Damian. Gosh, that was so fun! He is obsessed with farm animals, and we thought it would be great idea to take all the kids, but the girls did not think so. I guess Rodeo wasn’t as cool to them as it had been the past years. It felt different to be out with just our smallest baby, but it made me so happy that we were able to have that one-on-one bonding time with him. Just observing what a special time our baby has with us when sisters aren’t around makes me remember when I wasn’t sure I would be a good boy mom. Here I am today wrapped around his fingers. Never wanting him to leave my side, selfishly never wanting him to get married and leave me. It was such a beautiful, and incredible night out followed by a nice walk around the fair after the Rodeo. We happily enjoyed our first and last funnel cake of fair season for the year. As we exited the fair, I looked back and wondered how different our little family might look coming back next year.

The last 2 years, I have been trying my best to live in the moment and really enjoy each day I am given. I tend to always be planning things, and it is easy for me to get caught up waiting for the next thing to come. I constantly have to pause and reevaluate if I am living my life with intention and soaking it all in. Time has been seeming to move faster than usual recently, and sometimes it scares me.  I want to continue to live a meaningful life enjoying my little family, my parents while I have them, and most importantly, celebrating the time we are given to be together.  I have recently caught myself looking at each of my babies and remembering the days when I could pick them up and place them on my hip all day, or when they would need to be rocked to fall asleep. People would tell me, “Don’t get them accustomed to being rocked to sleep by you. Let them cry themselves to sleep or they won’t know how to fall asleep on their own”. How I so wish that was true because I didn’t listen. I still rocked them, held them, and fell asleep with them. Let me tell you. They CAN definitely fall asleep without needing me. Now, they barely need my help at all. How I wish that I could turn time around and do it all over again.  

The question to the BIG question we get asked all the time. Will we have another baby? The answer is YES. YES, we will, and hopefully, God willing soon. Motherhood is one of the most beautiful, rewarding, and fulfilling feelings in the world to me. I would choose to be a mother any second in a heartbeat a million times over and over again. Here’s to the summer almost ending, lots of memories made with your little ones, and a great start to a new school year. May your coffee continue to be stronger than your toddler.

Csy