Csy-Lux

Happy Tuesday, friends. I am sitting here on this early morning drinking my hot coffee, watching my morning favorite- Today show- and about to start my work from home day. I have been home for a whole 7 days and not because I wanted to. I had COVID. What I had was awful. I had full blown up, body aches, shaking on my bed, burning up and feeling so tired, kind of icky sick. While I am now seeing the light at the end of the tunnel- thank the lord. The last days were horrible.  I just want to say- the whole family getting COVID during the pandemic lockdown was a bummer. But being the only one getting COVID during the last week of school sucks even worse. It is totally the same as missing out on one of your kid’s milestones.

Covid guilt: Asking myself,”How does someone like me get COVID?”

Right? Like didn’t COVID see that I run multiple times a week? I post it on my Instagram. Didn’t it check my diet and see that I eat real food 98 percent of the time and limit sugars and junk food? Didn’t COVID see i have 3 kids, and I’m pretty much their personal Uber before and after my full time job driving them everywhere, like a mad woman? COVID really said, “ I don’t give a S*** about who you are or what you eat”. Tag, you’re it.  

First of all, I have no idea where I picked up the virus and how I was the only one who went down with it. I’m thankful to have been the only one who got sick though. I can’t imagine my kids missing out on their last days of school. The last time my middle baby is a second grader, and the last day, my oldest is a sophomore. ❤️ Getting sick suddenly meant dropping everything I had planned. Forgetting the to-do lists. Not being able to oversee morning routines, not doing nighttime routines. Not giving my babies their good morning or good night kiss. I like to control everything that has to do with our routines, and for me to just watch the action from afar saddened me.  It meant knowing 100 percent that my husband had it all down -cuz he’s like the best dad ever-  but still having anxiety because it’s in my nature.

Thankful for my husband

Thank god for my husband, who took the next couple of days off to do last day drops off for each of the girls and picked them up as well. He did morning routines and night routines every single day. He kept our babies busy and taken care of ❤️ If you’re new here, I co sleep with my little one. I love co-sleeping with my babies when they are little, and that took a sudden pause when I suddenly tested positive for COVID. We had to explain to our baby why he couldn’t sleep in my bed for the next couple of days. We took quarantining very seriously for many reasons. My mother in law just had a major surgery, and we couldn’t expose her to getting sick, we have a newborn within the family ( I love you Belina), and we also have elderly people around us that would be considered high risk. We frequently visit my parents’ house and my in-laws, so understandably, I took a small break from doing so. We love being over there every weekend and even during the week after work! The first time we had COVID, it took down our household, my inlaws, and my parents’ household. That’s a whole Domino effect we weren’t even trying to think about this time around. 

My time in quarantine

I went long periods sleeping, drinking so many hot teas, and missing my family. I managed to make the best out of the situation when I was feeling good to catch up on some reading and some unfinished books, binge watch some shows, finish unfinished tasks.

Made some Zuppa Toscana

Became a self proclaimed farmer

My brother has been growing all the veggies lately. He’s growing zucchini, potatoes, sweet corn, and cucumbers. He’s doing it all. He’s got the most amazing setup, and of course, he influenced me a week before I got sick to go out and buy myself some seeds and start my own little farm. What better than to grow my own veggies if I’m trying to live a healthy life? Time home alone allowed me to slow down and pay attention to what I had just planted. It gave me time to appreciate what I had committed to. I talked to my plants, I watered them, made sure they were loved, and showed them I cared. In return, I got my first strawberry.

I did a lot of things that I never have time to do while away from my family and that sometimes I wish I could do, but nothing beats being healthy and around those you love ❤️   This is how the past 7 days have been for me and I hope yours have been healthier and better than mine were. Even in the stormiest of storms, I’m thankful that this a passing inconvenience and that it soon passed. Health is wealth friends ❤️

–Csy